It’s 4 a.m. where I am. I’ve been up since about 1 a.m. Just woke up and am not tired at all. Second time in the last few days.
My oldest grandson came over with his girlfriend yesterday. They were very interested in pie, which I had made the day before. It’s so nice to see him happy. He’s going to go to school in the fall at the local community college. His girlfriend was studying music, but has decided she will change her major. Seems that studying music as it is presented in her University caused her to be too critical of what she hears, and she would like to enjoy it rather than be critical of it. I suspect she is very talented.
There’s this 21-day process/change you go through after you become attuned in Reiki. For me it’s not been that easy. I picture myself walking through the door that has been opened. I have no idea what is on the other side, so it’s a bit scary. Good things I’m told are there, feels like there are good things. Can that feeling be trusted? Got some strict guidance/advice from my instructor yesterday, which I was glad to have. Very helpful, though I got the feeling he was worried I would be upset. That would be silly since I asked for help. He took time out from where he was to send me texts. If I had known he was not free I would have not messaged him. Maybe I can just send him email after like 7 or 8 p.m. if I have a question. Or maybe I should not contact him at all. Anyway, he gives but does not accept in return. Which makes things feel lopsided.
I have this friend who always likes to have the last word. I was so surprised when that came up in a few conversations we had. I would say good bye after she said good bye, but then she Had to say Something. Don’t know why, but this just makes me happy. We talked about it the other day. She has one person she knows, who also wants to have the last word so they go on and on until one of them gives in. I’m thinking in utter exhaustion!
Wish I could go somewhere away from here for a little while. Not possible with my car right now. Have to take it in for repair. Heaven only knows what’s wrong with it. And the whole traveling alone thing is o.k. but it is always much better to share in an experience. I do not know how to solve this particular need… It’s possible that it will just sit here until it fades away.
Went back to the park yesterday and met a little dog name Alvin, I think his name is Alvin. His owners were very friendly and brought him over to meet me. He is a very lively puppy all wiggly and full of energy chasing after every leaf or movement in the grass. There was also a woman on what looked like a surf board, standing and paddling down the river. Looked like it might be fun. Sent more Reiki to the little dog, who ate the stick. I could see him laying there expectantly, felt like there was a lot of energy that moved. Hopefully he will be o.k.
Every single person in this world is beautiful in some way, no matter how skinny or fat the beauty is there. Sometimes the beauty is in how they carry themselves. I’m thinking of a friend I knew many years ago. She was heavier than some, but you could see her beauty by the way she walked. I have lost touch with her at this point in my life. Her dream was to move to Jamaica and teach. One time we went out on a double date together. It was a total disaster! The man I went out with was controlling and the man she went out with, though very handsome, turned out not to be as nice as we thought he was in the beginning. Such is life.
Maybe it’s time for coffee.